2021.10.22 15:40 tseuzhas I hate uni
Probably chose the wrong subreddit again but who cares no one would read this shit anyways. So I entered university, it's been 2 month and I hate it. I felt horrible from the very beginning when I arrived to the dormitory. I hate it more and more everyday. Everything has gone to shit now. I'm not attending those fuckin online classes anymore. We switched to distant learning 2 weeks after everything started. It's easier this way, because I just stopped doing anything. I hate it all. I hate every single subject we have. I don't want to be an engineer at all. I was bad at school, I was diagnosed with ocd and depression my final year, everything was shit still my parents don't seem to care. My dad especially, I had a plan that I'll just find a job after graduating and start saving money for my dream, I won't tell the details. My mom liked it, but my dad just so fixed on the idea that bachelor degree is so so so so important. And I think it's not, I don't want to be a doctor or whatever. There's no such course in my country that I'd really like to study. Abroad there are though.. Right now I'm just feeling like I was forced to study those stupid physics. Idk what to do alksjadghaljk sometimes I really feel this deep despair I'm thinking how hard everything is and that I just can't do anything I want. It upsets me that no one seem to care about me and the fact that I feel like shit and I HATE uni so much. It makes me think sometimes what would change everyone's opinion about all of that. They don't understand when I suffer mentally so should I hurt myself so they get it lol? I'm not being serious, but I have this kind of thoughts sometimes. Why no one cares? I'm just tired of all this. I just want to run away somewhere. I want peace.
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2021.10.22 15:40 comfyawkward Me and my pikmin merely attempting to exist: ☺️ Every other creature on the planet:
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2021.10.22 15:40 machfour4 Haven't played SW since the Street Fighter collab, how's the game now?
Started playing the game back in early 2015 and played religiously until just after the SF collab event last year. Stopped playing because I felt like I wasn't making anymore progress, grinding GB/DB/NB and raid for hours a day and never getting a decent rune. How is the game these days? Been thinking about coming back casually.
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2021.10.22 15:40 bubble_boxer69 start of a better world
2021.10.22 15:40 icanrawc SPOOOOOKY Halloween Abstract tips n' techniques / stencils & spray paint
2021.10.22 15:40 joaofig BILHETES PARA OS JOGOS CONTRA O CANADÁ E JAPÃO JÁ ESTÃO DISPONÍVEIS!
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2021.10.22 15:40 Giogiu3900 Hey spirits, will I see her on Tuesday?
2021.10.22 15:40 wox525 Found your content recently... my story
2 years ago I researched gaming addiction and wasn't even sure if it was legit. Some sources said it was the same as heroin and others found it a joke. All I knew is that my life overall is better when not gaming.
Around 10-11 my friend introduced me to this MMORPG called Tibia. Loved and enjoyed this game so much but it always made me frustrated that my parents would only let me play in short periods of time. It was optimal to be able to go out on a couple hour hunt with friends once in a while.
Throughout my teen years I was grounded a lot and most of the time not allowed to play games. So I'd lock my door at night and play Allstar Baseball 2003 for Ps2 every night since sound didn't really matter in that game.
Teen years were rough mostly because it was challenging for me to make friends. My mom had two babies around that time and most kids with similar interests lived far away. Most of my friends were on tibia which eventually turned pretty obessive. At one point I got a macbook because the game wasn't on mac but eventually figured out a hack to get a copy of windows xp on my mac. (By the way, whenever I'd go see a therapist they'd tell me I wasn't depressed even though I felt most of the signs of it)
Same friend that got me into tibia introduced me to poker (we previously played a bunch of yugioh) and eventually decided to go pro. It was tough because my step dad blocked me off the wifi so I had to do expensive things like pay for the dongle and eventually rent an office and eventually move to the Philippines since poker got blocked in usa.
There it was impossible to play tibia because the internet felt like the windows 95 days. Luckily, we had a ps3 at our house and a futbol game (PES). Learned later upon reflecting that I played much more games when I was emotionally frustrated. Games and eating (even though I never gained extra weight).
Fast forward to today, my friend reintroduced me to Pokemon Go which I'd previously quit back in 2016 because the game didn't really work well/ not much to do. Now I'm pretty hooked to the point where it interferes with my job... have always been a fan of cold turkey quitting things (did with drinking 4-5 years ago) but after 4 days it was so painful that I decided I had to play.
Sometimes I enjoy playing. Sometimes it's what should I do.... and decide there's nothing else really to do and pick game and go out and do the endless things possible in Pokemon Go. Right now I'm grinding super hard to finish my goal so I can quit all together... just don't think playing casually is including in my current wiring.
Another funny thing I wanted to add was a few weeks ago when I returned to tibia. My friends made it seem like they were stuck there and almost jealous that I wasn't playing the game all that time haha. Wouldn't be surprised if 80% of the remaining community doesn't even want to play that game any more.
Am writing this because of how ironic I feel it is to listen to Dr. K videos while somewhat understanding the psychology and neurology of what I'm doing yet still playing at the same time.
Overall have pretty low self worth and find it challenging to do basic things like brush my teeth (which I finally have the habit of!!) Think that I'm unable to play poker any more due to probable executive dysfunction and also get the highest levels of anxiety I've ever had. Also have always felt unmotivated some months I would work 1-3 days and others every day and find the pieces on actual motivation fascinating.
Thanks for allowing me to vent found the discord very intimidating as most servers I'm a part of do not voice chat at all.
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2021.10.22 15:40 sennay2001 "Let me show you how it's done" 🦋
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2021.10.22 15:40 Grimbly_Slagknuckle [HELP] [PC] [DSR] The Four Kings
2021.10.22 15:40 Material_Book_8280 Look noah, I know you said you’d only 24 hour stream for Skate 4….. but like……. Cmon 😔🥺👉👈
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2021.10.22 15:40 Alessandrinooo My first Short Video!
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2021.10.22 15:40 yellowsubmarine2016 Bad idea? Use F4-3000C15D-16GVRB in a ASUS Prime Z490-P LGA 1200 MB DDR4 4600? Links included. Thanks.
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2021.10.22 15:40 Typical-Food-1368 Google STEP Interview freshman
2021.10.22 15:40 ElrondMcBong231 I helped some dudes in hell with anc and baal kill. Baal rewarded me with a shako. My first.
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2021.10.22 15:40 dearthofkindness Optical illusion made these bricks look oddly flat, almost like a vinyl sticker wall, despite the dark areas promoting ridges/bumps
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2021.10.22 15:40 Byteman58 LEGO 42120 Rescue Hovercraft Circuit Cubes motorization
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2021.10.22 15:40 TheRandomGuy Announcing DiscoFlip V2 - feedback please
Based on feedback from this community I spent the past couple months improving the product. It would mean a lot if you could take it for a spin and provide feedback. Thanks in advance fellow riders! DiscoFlip V2
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2021.10.22 15:40 ShiroHachiRoku What happens to the balls on oceanside holes that end up in the water? Picked up by divers? Stuck in whale blowholes?
2021.10.22 15:40 TheTrickster30 How can i permanently change my mindset without ever going back?
I feel desperate by now... Every now and then, whenever i try to change my mindset, get rid of any bad habbits (like caring what strangers think of me) or anything, i can do it for maybe like a day or sometimes, best case scenario 3 or 4 days until i again get back to my once again shy, awkward self. I see no light in this tunnel here, there is nothing wrong with those advices, there is something wrong with me (not) using them. It's not about the fact that i forgot about them, it's that i won't have a mindset that will automatically use them, or well, i do, but only for that day or 2, sometimes 3.
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2021.10.22 15:40 Working_Art_3400 [DS1][XBOX][HELP]
2021.10.22 15:40 meme131599 Is taking the OAT in Jan too late for this cycle??
So I scheduled to take my OAT in November but I feel not ready for it so I wanted to reschedule to December but no dates are available until Jan I’m really scared I don’t want to be too late applying I already applied to different schools and told them that I’m going to be retaking my OAT. I feel like I really messed and should’ve started studying earlier but I just know that I won’t have enough time by November
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2021.10.22 15:40 beats_86 Edmonton Firefighter going for world record ice submersion (3 hours) tomorrow. All for charity. A 50/50 is running and half the total will goto Muscular Dystrophy Canada. Here is the link to get tickets. https://www.rafflebox.ca/raffle/mdc5050/
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2021.10.22 15:40 yuri_tarted_ Ok so i did something really stupid..
I ran a timemachine backup for my MBA on my external hdd. I wanted to save the backup on my cloud storage as well. I figuired it won't let me upload straight from my external hdd to the cloud, I copied the backup file from the External to Internal storage on my Mac.
After a lot of goofing around online, I've figuired that I can't upload my mac backup to my cloud. Howeer, the Backup file (200GB) still lies on my internal storage, and I can't seem to delete it.
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2021.10.22 15:40 shivten123 Expansion